A Single Apple (Self Harm)

My dwelling place is a burrow

Safe from everyone who loves and cares for me.

 

I wake

Stretch and have breakfast

A single apple to keep the doctor away

And then I started drinking and smoking heavily

Like I had done other days and other nights.

 

Feeling internal pain externally helps a lot

So I take a blade and run it through my flesh

Again and again

Until my eyes roll back

And the smell of copper fills the air.

 

Sleep, wake and repeat

Until I need food to eat

A single apple to keep the doctor away.

 

photocred: Arinzechukwu Patrick by Dinos Auoros